Well, I am back from my hiatus and the first cards I made are:
|from me to mom|
|from the girls to grandma|
So, the reason I named this entry "About: Forgiveness" is because well if there were anything that I have not perfected is FORGIVENESS. It is a flaw in me that prevents me from being totally whole. I admire individuals that get hurt from an individual and turn around and embrace that same individual in their lives after a short period of time. I just can't do that. There is something inherent in me that makes it easier for me to just walk away and forget that person ever even existed in my world.
It's kind of childish, I am sure it is. But one of the things that I have mastered is the ability to realize when a relationship has reached its end, or has become toxic. It may not be until years later when I find a photo tucked into a book, or run across that person at a social event, and now thanks to the wonders of Facebook, I get a friends request, that I think about the person. And the funny thing is, I always think of the good things first. But I am getting better. I really am. I promise, pinky promise, that I will grow up and learn about this FORGIVENESS thing.
There is one saving grace, my two young women. I have forgiven minor offenses, Bazzil Bling paper used to keep score of UNO games, giraffe figurines crashed, heehee minor offenses. As they grow, I know I will be faced with more serious issues but I could never imagine walking away from these two ladies. I thank the Higher Power for blessing me with a direct link to my more human side.